Today

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Tubing Down The River

After some quick planning, we all decided to go tubing! As it turned out, just us (Mom, Dad, Kathy, Cort, and myself) were able to go. We packed a lunch, stuck the cooler in it's own floaty, and down the river we went.
And, I have to say thank goodness for sunblock!! 50 SPF really did the trick, cuz after 3+ hours on the water I would of looked like a lobster. (You can see how well we "reflect" hehe)
It was somewhat relaxing, but mostly comical, as we all tried to avoid rocks and the occasional log. Anytime you heard someone yell "rock" or saw a ripple in the water, you immediately had to paddle to avoid it, or lift your bum up. Otherwise you were gonna get grazed.

Had lots of fun and hope to do it again. ☺ (Mom would be the camera operator, hence her absense in the photo)

Happy Father's Day to the best father I know...I am lucky enough to get to call him Dad! ♥

Nasty Weather

Just last week, we had some nasty storms roll through. With it came lots of rain, wind and even hail! It pulverized most of the gardens...

Couldn't Of Said It Better Myself

Now I hardly watch TV. But we have been dvr'ing the new series on OWN, "Why Not? with Shania Twain". My family and I have always been huge fans of her. Watching this reality show, and watching her try to figure out and heal from her divorce, it has actually helped me alot!!
And she could not of put how I feel lately any better ☺

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My Awkward New Best Friend

With chronic sinus trouble I've tried it all. Every over the counter medicine you can think of. An at home remedy/recipe from my doctor, a saline solution I, myself could mix up and had to snort up my nose. I was told years ago to try a neti pot. After seeing people pour the water mixture through one nostril and watch it trickle out the other, frankly it freaked me out. Then I just plum forgot about it. But just recently I got my own neti pot and I have only used it twice, and my constant sinus pressure and need for medicine had decreased dramatically, to little or none!! So my awkwardly used little neti pot, you just became my new best friend! ☺

Step 4...

Today I took another huge step. I gathered up all I had in me, and I finally filed for divorce. This is only the first step in what will be a long process, and there were lots of bumps to get to this road. But I finally started walking down that path and can't wait to start running down it!
I feel relieved and I also feel sad. I knew this was coming, it had to be done, and I wanted it done. But that sense of finalization comes rearing its ugly head. The unwanted emotions from before come back and settle in. That sense of failure comes back and the knowledge that I will no longer be a Mrs., but I will be known as a Ms. I don't get to go back to Miss. I feel like there will be a 'scarlet letter' before my name. I feel marked.
I just have to constantly remind myself...though he may get to continue to be a Mr. and no one is the wiser. He won't be 'marked' for what he did (though I think it should be tattooed on his forehead). I will try and remember that I earned my 'mark', I earned Ms.
I just hope the rest of this process is quick and painless.