Thursday, September 3, 2009

Ho-Hum

Well, despite the obviously negative things that have been going on in my life. Being separated, moving from my home, and still looking for someone to give me a job. I've been trying to keep as positive as possible, also as busy as I can. Which hasn't been easy. Slowly getting a routine down here, and everyone (my pets) has gotten all settled in.
Trying for every job I can find. They are scarce down here, I keep hearing back about all the overwhelming responses employers are getting along with my own. And the only interviews I have gone on, are group interviews.
Nothing like showing up for an interview, asking for someone, being told to sit and wait, and watch 10-15 other people file in behind you, and ask for the same person!? Then have an interview with 10-15 other people in the same conference room with you. It's discouraging, but it must be done.
I am still building myself back up, and finding my footing again. Fighting my anxieties has begun to get easier. Going through all this is starting to really change me, the way I see things in this world, and the people in it. Stepping back this far has also given me a much bigger view of the way my life was a couple of months ago. I've realized I should of RUN away from it a long time ago, as fast as I could. I am just glad I am out of that situation now, instead of even later. It's hard to see how wrong, and completely upside-down things are when you are so close to it, and so far into it. Some people don't ever leave, I stayed for too long, because I was scared to leave. Facing all this, I have gotten stronger, and I will never put myself in that situation again. I would hope I see the signs way before they get as far as they did this time, in the future. I did all that I could to save it, but I couldn't do it all on my own, and I can at least walk away knowing that I did try.
On the plus side, this past week, it's been beautiful!! The humidity and summer heat broke last week, and we have found ourselves chilly! After getting used to the 90's and muggy air, 60-70 degrees, and no humidity, gives you goosebumps. Mom and I even started a fire in the fireplace yesterday morning to take off the chill. I laughed at how pathetic we were, aren't we suppose to be hardcore northerners? I am turning into a bit of a southern pansy. Between the slight twangs on the ends of my words I keep catching myself say, and being cold in 65 degree weather (up north, that was shorts weather! hehe).
I don't know how long it will last, but I am loving this fall like weather!

1 comment:

Jaden Paige said...

I'm so glad to hear you are getting your footing and finding yourself again, Teresa.

I love the new layout on your page, too! Keep your chin up, someone will see your potential (for a career) and snatch you up soon! :)